I left church that Sunday in shock. I was so upset with myself. WHAT was I thinking? Who was behind that voice that popped out of my mouth?
There was absolutely no way I was capable of teaching an adult ladies Sunday School class. But I was signed up to do so the following Sunday when, for some reason, I blurted out, “I will do it,” when the teacher asked for a substitute!
All the way home, my head was spinning. I was bombarded with thoughts like what makes you think you can teach that class? Those ladies are mature Christians. You don’t know the Bible or Jesus like they do. You are going to be a flop.
As the fountain of negativity spewed that afternoon, I realized the Holy Spirit had prompted my out burst. In other words, this was a calling by God. And Satan knew it. Thus his immediate attack on me after church.
I knew I could stop satan’s repeated chants by praying. So I began praying. I knew I could not teach the class but I knew God could through me. That was my prayer.
That week, I spent countless hours with God in prayer and in the scriptures for the following Sunday. I prayed for God to give me the wisdom to fully understand and the words to convey. I wrote notes and a lesson plan. By Saturday night, I felt well equipped through prayer, scripture and notes.
So I walked in Sunday morning with Bible and lesson in hand and a joyful peace. But the moment after I said, “good morning, I am glad you all are here”, my mind went totally blank! Suddenly I was afraid. I looked down at my notes. I saw words but I couldn’t read them. My heart quietly cried out to God to please help me! Then, I remember taking a deep breath. But that’s it. I do not remember anything else I said during that lesson.
I had class members tell me later that they felt God’s presence in that lesson that day. And I’m sure they did, because Jesus taught that day. I was merely His instrument.
Life is better with Jesus!
“for it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure.” – Phillippians 2:13
“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” – Phillippians 4:13